I viewed the HBO Alz. Project recently. I have only a few words to say about this project. It was more like the ” crying project”. I did get the Kleenex out and I thought I was much stronger than that. I rarely leak anymore when I see my sis. I used to leak like crazy. It was when I saw how it affected the little kids. Especially when they said, ” when grandma acts like that remember its the disease talking to you and not grandma.” Well what the kid sees is physical grandma and I doubt they comprehend blaming the disease but they do comprehend the sadness that comes with having their feelings hurt from grandma’s actions or lack of actions…… I have said that many times and now I realize that it sound beyond ridiculous to say this to a child. I think what I will say next time is, ” you see your grandma’s brain is very sick and it makes her talk like this to you” they might understand that better. You see I have been at this scene for some time now ( going on 8 years) . I always like the science part of the program. I didn’t realize that we have only been researching Mr. A for 25 years. I don’t feel like it has advance much as it has not helped my sis at all. I guess the best is yet to come on this. I am waiting for some big break thru to happen. She is still here in the body but not in the living. Her little mind left her bod some time ago. So I have not had my sister for some time. So we have already been grieving and have grieved. I did not feel hope ful at all like I think they wished to send this message to the public. It is alot like many other diseases the ending of the story is just not that great. In the future I doubt I will view anything else like this again. I want something to lift me up and not pull me back down and that is what Mr. A does on a daily basis. You never get over the hurt of when someone forgets you. I don’t care how strong you claim you are. It hurts. And they are correct for sure… you really need to love the person you care for as a caregiver or you won’t be able to do this for very long.
Prayers go up and blessings do come down sometimes.
later/ sunny
